Chapter 32 - The Shadow

It's a pretty fun exercise ... imaging there is a superficial being talking to you in your head. I started with imaging a figure. I passed so many figures in my mind; none of them seems to be able to offer me anything I want, until I see of the face of Rumpelstiltskin (in the TV show “Once Upon a Time”, not the original fairytail). He is in his suite and walk close to me with his crutch. And the conversation starts:

(R: Rumpelstiltskin, M: Me)

R: What can I do for you here?

M: Wait. You are not the loving elder I suppose to meet? Are you?

R: Love is too much to ask for from a stranger, don’t you think so, daring? I’m just here for some entertainment. So let’s talk about the business. What do you want here?

M: I want nothing from you. Nothing I want can get from you.

R: No, daring. I know exactly what you want. You want power. You and I are the same kind. I can sense desperate souls.

M: How exactly you can give me power? What do you want from me?

R: Heart, of course. But just as a tip, heart contents the most powerful magic, once you lost it; it’s no way to repair.

M: No, I want to keep my heart… but I feel a hole in my chest and I can never cover it.

(Rumpelstiltskin seats closer with softer attitude)

R: It’s because you always want more and more and more. You can hardly be satisfied. I’m not asking you to stop wanting, because that mean you won’t want to see me anymore.

M: Why telling me the true… or it’s just another lie?

R: That is a question you can only answer by yourself. Hope that you still want to do business with me.

M: Now you have your entertainment. Leave me alone.

R: Until the next time.

Yeah, so it turns out my advisor is not any fairy godmother but someone is consistently trying to get me sell me soul.

I was doing this exercise on my bed without any music. It helped me to focus.